One Week..

It has been one week since my husband was arrested.. I have had zero contact with him, with the exception of a couple of text messages I received from the wife of someone he met in jail, asking for bail and commissary money. My feelings about him being in jail keep changing, but I mostly feel so much anxiety and worry. Worried that he is going to hate me, worried that this won't be the "rock bottom" he needs to hit in order to really make any change, worried that I'm not doing the right thing by letting him sit in jail, anxious about whether or not I should lift the "no contact" order...